Why I create the art I do.

{Why I create art}

My art is having an impact and that’s not why I create. Not initially any way. It’s about exploring my relationship to things that move me. It’s about control. Controlling my tendency to shut down, numb out and allow negative thoughts to consume my experience.

I grew up with a lot of trauma. I was disconnected from my body, surviving, shifting with conditions around me. Trying to make sense of things and protect myself from the pain and confusion I was feeling.

I’ve been reacting and making decisions from my ideas of how things are versus knowing what’s really going on. Our thoughts are not necessarily the truth.

I navigate shame, fear, self criticism, and doubt pretty regularly. Anxiety is a common companion. These are all residues from these traumatic times.

Art, flowers, landscapes have brought me back to a place of feeling. A purity of knowing what’s true for me in the moment. Creating from this inspired, connected and emotionally charged place is magical.

I’m addicted to this level of feeling and enquiry.
I want more. I want to understand how I am impacted by nature. Thankfully my inquiries are resulting in beautiful art works that my audience loves too.

My love + viewers love = more love in the world.

Win, win, win.

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